Anyway, because this (natural birth outside of the hospital) was always the goal for me, I had to believe that I would have a low-risk pregnancy, as birth centers and home births don't take "high-risk cases".
As well as believing for that, I also decided my pregnancy would be easy and that I'd love the way I looked with a big bump protruding from my abdomen!
So many people like to talk about the negative parts of pregnancy and how hard and horrible things can be – don't even get them started on the actual birth process. Not to say, I hadn't heard any wonderful, upbeat comments as well, but it just seemed like there was an overwelming amount of negativity. From what I'd seen through media and heard from people around me, pregnancy was gonna be HARD, and there was no getting around it.
I didn't want that. I was so excited to get pregnant and give birth for the first time, and I felt like that excitement shouldn't end at conception.
Maybe I'm a special case, I don't know, but I do know I decided, in faith, that this would be a wonderful time in my life, and it's been just that and so much more! And I don't think this would have been my experience if my position before I got pregnant was one of fear, distrust, and expectations for the worst.
When it comes to labor and delivery, I can't talk out of experience yet, but right now, my focus is just the same as before. God created me to give birth, He put this baby inside of me (well, you know what I mean), and He will enable me to get him out. And that doesn't have to be traumatic.
Truth is, I don't have any fears about labor, so all that leaves room for is an exuberant amount of shrill excitement. Yes, yes, I know what you're all thinking "This girl is out of her mind!" "She has no idea!" "How dare she!" "Boy, does she have it coming!", but I can't force myself into a place that seems absolutely unnecessary. Why plan for the worse, get all worked up for hardship and pain, when I don't know at all what labor will be like?